I was tired. I had stayed up to watch the Georgia returns, so about 1:30 I built a fire in the fireplace, got my book and a cup of tea (a cookie too, I am sure), a blanket and turned on the overhead light which simulates sunshine to me. Soon Boss had snuggled in, the book was closed and I slept.
I awakened around 4:00 and checked my phone for the time. It had blown up with cryptic texts - "He should be arrested." "I can't believe this is happening." There were others. I turned on Jake Tapper - but got the videos of the Capitol being stormed.
I responded to everyone who had texted and watched, unbelieving. Only later did I start to think how much worse it could have gotten, how we had watched "Designated Survivor" the first season and realized the possibilities. I was shaken.
It reminded me of a time in Norway, my second trip to Europe. I was so young, so idealistic. I hitched by myself, going where and when I wanted. I followed my own "rules" - never hitch at night, say no to a ride if I caught weird vibes, drink only with friends. For the most part - unlike my first trip - I was alone. Hey - I knew what I was doing.
I had come across on the ferry to Norway, and was hitching with a young man from Victoria, B.C. Hitching with Canadians bought a sense of protection. America was not the most loved country then; Canadians were revered. We were picked up by a couple who invited us to spend the night at their camp high in the mountains. We had a marvelous time - they loved showing us around and then dropped us off the next day on our way east.
Somehow we were let off at a store later in the afternoon. A group of older boys were hanging around. My friend was asked to look at something inside the store and I was left with the group. They knew by then that I was American. They surrounded me and taunted me, saying I supported Nixon if I was American. I looked for escape and there was none, just waited it out. They grabbed at my backpack containing everything I owned - clothes, money, passport. At that point my hitching partner came out and I pulled him back into the store for my safety and to tell him what had happened. He shrugged it off, the small crowd of boys dissipated, and we hitched a ride somehow out of there. I had never felt so American as I did then. And so surprised that I could be targeted. Especially for something a President I had never supported had done. But I felt I needed to defend him, somehow. Weird.
So what will it be like for other Americans traveling abroad after last week. I can't imagine. I know I am happy to be here in Central New York, fairly removed from conflict, "safe." But I am very saddened that the innocence I had they will never know.